I don’t like it..but here it is


I’ve been dreading today’s trip to the doctor for three days. Well, correction, not a doctor, but my nurse practitioner, who I’ve only met once before. And I have to say, I like the guy; he amazes me, with the exception that as near as I could tell he didn’t call up my specialists as he promised to on my last visit. Ah. And so it goes with my health issue drama.

I had planned to write up all my symptoms this weekend but I didn’t. The very thought of sitting down to do it depressed me. That and I was having an all weekend severe flare up. Hell, when I got up this morning I checked my e-mail and then just laid down. I wasn’t feeling super terrible, but I wasn’t feeling great and I was very depressed. America is the only first world country where you’d be forced to work when you feel like this.

So I worked. And since I was feeling better and able to multitask, I wrote up my symptoms which was easy enough to do as they’ve become like breathing to me. Since you have nothing bette to do besides read them (kidding), here’s what I wrote up and gave to my “Nurse Practitioner” today:

What is a flare?
 
Any combination of increased symptoms that make it more difficult to function normally and in extreme cases, make it completely impossible to function in a non-disabled fashion.
 
What constitutes a moderate flare?
 
A moderate flare makes it difficult to perform normal every day-to-day functions (i.e. bathing, making a meal, doing the dishes, driving, etc.).  During a moderate flare I can “force” myself through a work day by taking notes, scheduling meetings strategically, and taking regular breaks including, when needed, laying down for around an hour.
 
What constitutes a severe or extreme flare?
 
An extreme flare makes it difficult to impossible to perform cognitively heavy tasks (i.e. tasks necessary for my employment [e.g. reading/writing, programming, solving even simple problems, using a computer in any meaningful fashion), social interactions [e.g. meetings], driving), etc.   During an extreme flare I am barely be able to perform simple cognitive functions including but not limited to straight forward written or verbal communication or navigating three dimensional spaces in a meaningful way.
 
How often did I experience moderate and extreme flares prior to my July ER visit?
 
Prior to July I experience moderate flares one or more times a week and severe flares once or so a year.
 
How often do I experience moderate and extreme flares since my July ER visit?
 
I now experience moderate flares on nearly a daily basis (if they’re not ongoing from day to day) and severe flares about once a week.
 
What are the triggers and/or influencers of moderate to severe flare ups?
 
While in general the flare ups and presentation of symptoms seems random, there are some common triggers/influencers that may cause them to worsen:
 

  • Sitting:
    • Stomach is at an angle
    • Pressure on the GI
    • Pressure on the legs
  • Standing:
    • If locking legs too long
    • Standing too fast
  • (Sometimes) Exercise/excess physical exertion while I’m having a moderate flare up that’s trending towards a severe one
  • Stress (i.e. work)
  • Pressure on GI:
    • From belt or bending
  • Eating meals regularly; regular sized or large portioned meals (especially)
  • Certain drinks, notably:
    • Coffee
    • Sugary drinks
    • Certain types of alcohol (esp. fermented, i.e. beer)
  • Poor sleep

 Has anything helped? Of all of the things I’ve been prescribed in 2023 the only things that have had a noticeable impact are Combivent, Cromolyn, Prednisone.  Combivent has helped my cough, phlegm discharge (from lungs), and overall bronchitis.  The Cromolyn has, on a systematic level, “made the intolerable barely tolerable.”  Of the three Prednisone has had the most notable effect, bringing my symptoms down to a level that I could function and feel (almost) “normal”.
 
That said and in general, most “tricks” I’ve picked up over the years are prophylactic in nature, that is, they lower the odds of moderate to severe flare ups but do not prevent them from occurring. 
 
Following is a complete list of things that are beneficial or at the least prophylactic:
 

  • Prednisone (~70% improvement overall)
  • Cromolyn Sodium (~30% improvement overall, ~60% to headaches, ~70% to sinus discharge)
  • Combivent Inhaler (~5% improvement overall, ~30% lungs)
  • Fasting; keeping my GI clear and empty
  • Regular exercise (helps lower likelihood of cardiovascular and lung symptoms)
  • Solid Sleep (or more accurately, poor sleep will exacerbate most symptoms)
  • Hard core pain meds (only thing that hits the pain)
  • Laying on back with heat pad on my upper back/neck during day

The rest of this has terrible formatting so you’ll just have to fucking forgive the copy/paste to the blogosphere:

Symptom

Area
Triggers/Timing
Helps some sometimes or alwaysPain

Connective tissues, esp. fingers, hands, knees, ankles, left hip, lower back, neck

During flares

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI, Cromolyn

Edema

Face, fingers, knees

During flares, face in mornings

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI, Bisoprolol, diuretics, niacin

Balance Issues

Balance

Mornings, during worst flares

Prednisone

Legs

Easy bruising

 

 

Blue and numb skin

Lips, Feet

Random
 

 

Lightning pain

Arms and legs, usually left side

Random, likely during flares

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Pressure headaches

Top of head, behind eyes, right ear sinuses

Nearly constant

Prednisone, Cromolyn

Lightening headaches

Top of head, behind eyes, right ear sinuses

During flare ups

Prednisone, Cromolyn helps a lot!

Pain in eyes

Especially behind right eye; can result in pain and soreness moving eyes

During headache flares

Prednisone, Cromolyn

Aura’s

Used to have in my right eye; last for 1 – 3 hours

Random

 

Spec/floater in right eye

Had for ~2 years; looks like a dead “bug”

Constant

 

Night sweats

If bedroom isn’t chilled completely every night

Constant, much worse during flare ups

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Brain fog, spaciness, concentration issues, short term memory issues

Cognitive function

Constant to some degree, extremely worse during flare ups

Prednisone, Good sleep, Clear GI, Cromolyn, niacin, less stress

Mild audio / visual hallucinations

Cognitive function

Rare; during bad flare ups only

Prednisone, Good sleep, cromolyn, less stress

Tinnitus

Have always had, significantly worse since July, especially in right ear

Constant; immediately worse during acute flaring

 

Insomnia

Sleep

Most days

Prednisone, Ambien, Trazadone

Difficulty waking in morning

Sleep

Most days

Prednisone, Cromolyn

Feeling “hung over” for 1 – 5 hours

Cognitive function; sleep; whole body

Daily

Prednisone, Cromolyn

Low blood pressure

Cardiovascular

Random

 

High blood pressure

Cardiovascular

Random

Bisoprolol

Racing heart

Cardiovascular

Random

Prednisone, Bisoprolol, niacin, diazepam

Heart flutters/palpitations

Cardiovascular

Random

Prednisone, Bisoprolol, niacin, diazepam

Numbness

Radiates out to through arms and hands, usually along pinky and ring finger, same in legs.  Sometimes wake up with completely numb/dead arms.

Random

 

Blurred vision, issues focusing, esp. on near objects

Vision

Usually mornings

Prednisone, eye drops

Small red spots on skin

Skin

I’ve gotten these randomly since I’ve had Lyme + Bartonella

 

Uncontrollably shaking hands

Neurological

Only during extreme flares

 Dynamic Waist Size

GI; can go up and down 5 belt sizes over the course of a day

During bad flares

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI, cromolyn

Fatigue

Overall

Daily

Good sleep and when haven’t had bad flare for a day or two

Rib pain

Ribs, specifically right, back, lower

Comes and goes

Heat pad while laying on back

Green or black stool

GI

More likely black or green during or at the end of flare ups

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Diarrhea, loose stool

GI

Daily (due in large part to Miralax)

 

Thin stool

GI

Solid stool is often thin as a pinky during flare ups

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Gut feels like contorted balloon animal

GI

Before and during flare ups

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Stool smells nasty like a baby’s first movement or mold/mildew

GI

End of a flare up

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Swollen lymph nodes

Lymphatic system; usually throat

Random, but almost always during flare ups

Prednisone, Cromolyn, Miralax, Clear GI

Difficulty typing, using mouse, manual dexterity

Neurological

During flare ups

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI, Clear GI, good sleep

Muscle spasms

Neurological; usually in left and middle ring finger or inside of left leg; sometimes around eyes

Random

Prednisone

Weakness in left leg

Muscular

Has been an issue since 2007

 

Leg pain

Especially while sitting or laying legs on a pillow, especially in left glutes, often causes radiating pain and numbness down legs

Usually while sitting, worse during flares

Prednisone, regular exercise

Testicular pain

Testes

Worse during flare ups

Prednisone

Pain, pressure in chest

Lungs / Cardiovascular

Worse during flare ups, after smoking

Prednisone, cromolyn, Combivent, not smoking (obviously)

Bronchitis; coughing up handfuls of phlem

Lungs

Worse during flare ups or after smoking

Prednison, cromolyn, Combivent, not smoking (obviously)

Air hunger / Spaciness

Neurological?  Cardiovascular?  Something else? (feel like a fish out of water or been hit in the head by Mike Tyson)

Worse during flare ups, especially BAD during “ER worthy” flares

Prednisone, cromolyn

Nasal discharge

Sinuses

Constant since I was a kid

Prednisone, cromolyn

Snoring / Sleep Apnea

Sleep

Worse during flare ups

Prednisone, cromolyn

Red “butterly” pattern on face

Skin

Random, but more likely during flare ups

 

Popping joints vs. “swollen” joints

Joints – Swing back and forth between loose and popping or full and swollen feeling

Popping when flares ease up, swollen otherwise

Prednisone, Miralax, Clear GI

Dry Eyes

Eyes

Random

Eye drops

Sore throat, course voice, verge of loosing voice

Throat

During worse flare ups

Prednisone

Sores on tongue

Throat

Worse during flare ups

Prednisone, cromolyn

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